To kiah

[CinaSinclaire]

I am  directing my post to this post from you.

Yes its on the chores boards where the slave post what they have been doing in camp.
So for the most part I never really  give it much thought nor do I look them over.I did   happen today to do so!!!!!!!..

And at this point I dont give a rats ass  what happends as to weather or not I should respond  or  weather this is a safe place for the slaves to post and  no one  responds back to it.. I dont  know..

So that this clear I am pissed off  big time!!!Have I ever said a  unkind word to you ? Have I  ever acted mean harsh uncaring  unfeeling or  down right bitchy...............

you posted that the last three days have been hard for you I am sorry .. (( and in my roleplaying cause  further upset again it wont happen again..)) But I  need to say that what ever    else  might have happend  was not My doing..

It was  brought to me that I needed to get more involved in role play..that when I and maybe   a  few slaves were there to  roleplay doing things,,Maybe I should have  shared thats what I was doing!! So last night   when I was  talking to you and dilshad it was to  try and come up with maybe some thing that could be done  when... after all normal task were done and  no frees needing tending to  that Maybe  and  forgive Me  for  being  stupid in my thinking that doing something fun was  sooooooooooo  wrong  to  try and  come up with..Not that you posted about that  chat last night.

 Now to your  post about what happend  the night after the twister...(Let Me say I am sooo sorry for involving you it wont happen again))))

In fairness to roleplay   what I stated off was not far fetched..If it upset you I am sorry for that  was NOT  my plan or meaning to do so..
As to you comment   to being thrust into my roleplay again I am sorry (( it wont happen again))
But for you to comment  on the posting  that I made about the  point is NOT your place to do so..

That was for all Yes   but so I could   help other to help Me  in how I have to conduct myself  while I  am online..(( No thats not  your  fault or  in any way  yours to control))

May I also point out that what Happend  was Between   the Frees. Meaning Shy and Myself also directed   to all cause thats what I had to  do if I wished to stay online..As it was posted to  my post (( shit happends)) That I neeed to roll with the   punches so to  speak,,

So when the roleplay started  of Me having a  miscarrage again I was not trying to upset any one!!
It was not far fetched,, it  could happen  Just like the ST posting of the warrior that landed infront of where I was under the wagon   dead..One might think that  was  tramatic to have witnessed,,.Leaping under a wagon to get out of harms  way could have   hurt me  or the baby... again not  far fetched..

As to the fuck please  try and think about how   ones  roleplay may effect others

Trust me  I shall, Let Me say that all further role play will be run by Ragnar or  Raz  and or those of the Frees I feel I should check with in the future..!!

As for Myself and you.. I will Greet and  you should  greet. but for the time being that is all that will be needed.
I am sure there is Much I need to learn about  and as time goes on I will. but I am pissed Maybe I need to become harden  towords the  slaves But for Now I wont.....


As I need to remember that for every action there is a reaction so  do you!!!!!

Mistress Cina

Re: CHORES
« Reply #2642 on: May 23, 2009, 07:33:52 AM » 

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 i really hope things go in 'threes' because the last three nights have been....i don't even know the word

she was never so upset as she was last night. pissed and then plain old hurting. came seriously close to x'ing out or refusing to r/p

for One whom has already come to the boards to speak about 'drama r/p' and its effect on others etc i find it highly ironic to be thrust into the situation i was in. i understand it was realistic r/p to the Camp. i did get a pm to tell me what She was doing (after our r/p was already established). neither are enough to warrant a slave not to go along but for fucks sake maybe stop and think what r/p'ing a miscarriage might have on those directly involved

hated being a slave

loved the ladle r/p

had a good talk 
 

[rep]

greetings Mistress

You are right Mistress, you have never said an unkind, harsh, uncaring, unfeeling or down right bitchy thing her, Mistress

yes a girl had many difficult nights in a row, one of them was her r/p with you. part of her responsibility of posting on the chore board includes what she learned/felt from her experiences. they are not always positive but they are always honest and that does not automatically make them a complaint

a girl never thought and believes never acted like she thought you are stupid or wrong and is pretty sure she did not tell you how to r/p Mistress.

a girl did post about our talks night Mistress, when she mentioned about trying to find answers to what slaves do for fun etc.

a girl acknowledged in that same chore post you quoted that she realized the miscarriage theme was realistic to r/p

kiah understands that Mistress never needs to explain to her, including Her choice of what or how she r/p's Mistress

she will try harder to remember that (posts to) 'ALL' does not necessarily include a slave

miscarriages will remain a trigger of highly emotional response due to r/t. it is something she failed to leave 'at the door' and may be something she always struggles with. she realizes she did not do her best but did muster most of her strength to offer what little roleplay/reaction she did.

she understands that you are beyond displeased with her actions, words and thoughts. she thanks you for being willing to still greet a girl and will obey your wants of not interacting with you beyond a greeting.

she wishes you well,

kiah{MTC}

[CinaSinclaire]

Walks back up..

1, I never posted you were complaining..

2, I said my own thoughts must have been stupid,I never said  you  said they were.

3 I never said you told me how to roleplay. just that my roleplay upset you.

4 Posting about what we were talking about is good open up  talk.

5 Did not say you said that the miscarrage  roleplaying was unrealistic..

6yes in your post you pointed  out this.. and  this  is your  quote..but for fucks sake maybe stop and think what r/p'ing a miscarriage might have on those directly involved
So that maybe a valid responce or not its  yours..

7 when you brought up My post of what happend   at the point..My responce was to all including slave so  all would Know  what Bob/Talon said I could and  could not  do..(( and thats My cross to bare))

8 I am  truely sorry that this happend  to you and it  brought up painfull memories   in r/t   again I would have no knowlage of this happing as to this was r/t.. for you!

9 And being new to the room    if the   rules for  roleplay alowed   Any Free or slave not to roleplay  in something that is painfull or upsetting..I would have fully understood had you posted back to Me and I would have   left you out of the roleplay  I would have  had No issue  with it..( again I will be utterly carefull in my roleplay Not to do anything   with out First checking it out  with whome ever is there  that may  be roleplaying  with Me..)

10 As to No interaction for a while Thats  how it will be,, (( I do know real people are behind the puter  so Know that  .. as for R/T I have no  anger or  ill feelings  or  wishes for  you))and I am NOT saying you  dont know that there are real people behind the puter!!

I will  make No  further post on  these issues.. I wish a  slave well.

Mistress Cina

[Raziel]

The petty bickering/bitching/whining/complaining will cease.  I will say a few words in OOC about this and it will be done.

Raz