The Important Things..

[Nexhias]

How do you begin to measure the important things in your life.... perhaps one of the most self-realizing questions I've ever had to ask myself, or that any of us has ever had to ask ourselves.  Maybe it's only when we're on the verge of losing everything that is important to us do we ever really know, truely, what it is that spawns the unquestionable knowledge of what it is we hold dear...

In my relatively short amount of time on this spinning planet, I've learned a few of the things that are important to me..  Good friends... my family, both r/t and v/t...  quiet moments to myself, as those are few and far between these days..  and the outside world.  Looking through the window of a sterile hospital room... I guess you get to miss some of those priviledges that we all have.. 

Lately, I've had so much time to think, particularly at night when no one else is around.  One of those few precious moments to myself..  I miss freedoms that I used to have before going off to fight, and there are times that I'm angry enough that I want to scream..  part of the whole of it all, I imagine.  I miss the state of mind I used to be in, when everything was even-Steven and I wasn't consistently on a damned hormonal roller coaster..  But I think I can handle that..  But there are some things I'm not sure that I can handle.

You all may be wondering why I'm writing this, and I'll tell you..  I've had several daily exams since I've been in, lots of poking and prodding and picture taking.  In one of those pictures something showed up, something that could potentially challenge me as a person, moreso as a woman.  Don't think that I need to be more specific than that..  but, should things come to pass that I don't get another chance, I want you all to know that you were important to me in a time when I needed to laugh, and that you were there to engage me when I needed to slip away from r/t.  There isn't one of you that isn't loved or thought of highly for the wonderful characters that you are... and the amazing people you continually show yourselves to be.  Whether sooner... God forbid... or later, Tuchuk will be in my heart long after it stops beating.

With never ending love,

Nex

[Jay]

 

[RAGNAR]

Hang in there sis.

You are loved, and you love in return. Often that can make all the difference.

My sis will never face anything that deep down she is unable to handle, unless she makes up her own mind she can't and stops short of applying her all to overcoming.

Remember what we spoke of regarding door... how some close... but others open.

Don't you quit on me sis.... I will hold you to your word that you won't. You will keep going until your body quits on you. Never allow your head to tell you that you are done until the body says so.

We still have many things to discuss, and many things to experience together.

Again... my sis is loved very much, and remains in my thoughts and prayers!!!

*huggers*
 

[Taryn]

Sis, you don't want me to go into one of my lectures on you do you??? I didn't think so... ~grins and huggles~ besides, we both have lots of mischief to get into once the twins are born, and well I need a partner in crime, and I have elected you... sooooooooo you have to stick around... besides who else besides his children will help in giving Rags a full head of grey hairs... ~giggles and runs, dragging you off behind her~

I love you Sister...

[Krul]

A warm tight hug to a dear Sister

 Remembering all those tests I would through and the worrying of what they may reveal....unlike you Sis, I tend to go within myself and battle my own fears alone and in the end come to the conclusion that what will be will be and go on from there. Saying this is to say that I know what you're going through and is ever you need someone to talk with ... I'll be there.

Krul

[Thalia]

I know there is little I can say to allay your fears, but know that I am here for you.  Even during those times when we don't get to talk much in camp, I am watching you with a smile, so glad you have come back home to us. Love you!

[kelsey]

You are loved dearly Sis.....Let MTC be your haven...where you can come to laugh, to scraem, to cry....

[familure{TD}]

Mistress...i can't pretend to know or understand what You are going through, nor can i find some pretty words that will make everything ok. but i do know this....there is family here in Tuchuk, one that will be here for You as much as You want(at times even annoyingly so)...and more importantly, as much as You need.

You are loved~
~lure
{AD}