greetings Master,
a girl wishes to sincerely apologize for not being able to meet up with you to rp, twice, and get instructions regarding cleaning your wagon, as she eagerly volunteered to. she remains not feeling well in rt and while a bit embarrassing, she does feel you deserve an explanation. she has a tooth abscess, one that migrated to the roof of her mouth and thus she was put on clindamycin. she's never been on this antibiotic before and it's wreaking havoc on her digestive system from heartburn to worse stuff and leaving her exhausted. she also is allergic to tree and grass pollen so this is not a fun time of year. to top it all off, she is fighting off panic attacks that are compounded with her fear they will go into an Afib episode. yesterday afternoon she wanted to get in and get her feet wet again before meeting up at night with you. she instead slept. last night she again went to bed as soon as she was able. to look at the computer was making her dizzy. she just could not do it.
she does understand, Master, that all these reasons do not excuse her for not fulfilling what she volunteered for. she hopes you might know how happy she was to be picked to clean and that you were willing to rp a bit and not just post your wants on the board. she was grateful to have someone help ease her back into rp rather, as well. she was selfish to think she could put aside her physical problems and anxiety by serving. how she hoped to put it aside for awhile and do something she enjoys and if she allows herself to think about her own needs, what she needs as well. please know she is having surgery on Monday afternoon to have nine teeth removed. while she highly fears it, this is a great thing for her, no more dental fear, no more dental pain, and finally nice teeth. she hopes to feel better a few days after that and return to rp then.
she has posted here as she feels you deserve a public apology after you have generously a girl so much and to let Master handle this IC as he wishes. she also wishes to apologize to her sisters, especially kadi and chanz, as she has taken away an opportunity for them to clean Master's wagon. she is sorry too for letting her Owner and home down. she had great intentions, she understood the honor involved and she could not show you all how much she loves her collar and home. she wishes you well.
kiah{MTC}/laura