father's day *kinda chuckles*......yeah........was supposed to work, took an extra shift for a girlfriend who was going away for the weekend...I get a call at 1:00 from Jamie saying that his grammie is in the hospital across the street ........keep in mind.....that NONE of the family is around this weekend.....meaning my inlaws and all the other blood relatives are gone....so I literally run over there.....because she is by herself......87 years old......and as tiny as you.....her nephew and niece in law are the only ones there, and I cant get hold of anyyyyyyyyyone......so guess who got to make all the decisions??? yeah, me.....I've only been in this family for about 4 years mind you........so the doctor comes in and says she's probably not going to make it......my stomach drops, ..he says he hardly sees someone at that point make it through, and in her paperwork it wasnt clear whether or not she had a dnr......I said, look, my in laws are on their way back from pennsylvania, my father in law has power of attorney for health issues....I'm going to tell you that you need to do everything you can to save her.........he says, well, if she belonged to a church, you better call her minister or priest......again......my stomach drops......I call Jamie, he is on his way.....the doctor comes back in and says good news, I've got her blood pressure under control and she's breathing on her own.....and you can come in......her nephew and niece in law and I go in.....they stay for like 10 minutes........gram is intubated....with massive amounts of fluid being pumped out of her lungs, but is conscious......and alone......I stayed.....near her head, brushing her hair with my fingertips and talked to her constantly, obviously she couldnt respond, and her eyebrows spoke a thousand words, she was scared, and in pain, ....I told her I wouldnt leave her side and that everyone was on their way.....I was in there by myself with her till Jamie arrived about 30 minutes later.....and he held her hand on the other side.......the doctor then told us she was stable enough to be airlifted to dartmouth....had to sign the okay for that to happen....and again, talked to her, told her about the helicopter ride, and that I was jealous cause she got to go and I didnt, Jamie told her he promised he wouldnt race the helicopter up there *laughs*.....
told her that we wouldnt let her be alone...and that we would meet her up there.........by this time, its about 4pm by the time we get up to dartmouth....made some phone calls, met my brother and sister in law and nephew up there....and the five of us stood vigil and twiddled thumbs nervously cause they wouldnt let us in to see her cause they were still working on her....in the cardio icu......mum and dad finally arrive around 5:30....and we are finally allowed in to see her......the entire crew.....and then uncle, aunt and niece in law show up......and we go back and forth holding her hand, and I ask her if she wants to see T, my nephew, and her eyes light up and she nods ((again, she is intubated again)), I run and get my sister in law, and my nephew and tell her she wants to see T.....keep in mind T is 17months old, ......he reaches out to gram and holds her hand and she squeezes it.......my sister in law and I did everything we could to not cry...then comes the meeting with the doctors.....we all go in.......all of us........she's going in for emerg surg as soon as they can get the on call for the cath lab...dad signed the okay for it to be done and we went back in to see her, and stayed for a while........it is now 9pm, and I just got home......*sighs*........mum and dad are still there, and another uncle from maine on the way ....so I just keep my fingers crossed and pray that she'll be okay......she ended up having 2 heart attacks today...one in the morning, and one while the doctor was talking to her.....this makes her third one.....in less than a year......
so now we wait.......
but anyway, I have to eat something and get some sleep, I'll catch you up on the rest of the stuff when I get a bit more time, but the rest of life is going great, just worried about gram...
Gretch *hugs*
