RT always comes first, and camp will be here when you feel up to it. I know what it's like to watch a grandmother fade, the helplessness of that. Gor - the chores, the role-play - is utterly insignificant compared to the painful reality of watching a loved one die in slow, degrading stages. For some, Gor can provide escape from such; for others, it's just one more thing to deal with. If Gor is going to overload your already frying circuits, please... take the time you need for you!