thank you, Kadi, sis. last night was a huge help for me. i was able to get a thing off of my chest that has plagued me ever since it occurred, and had negatively colored my perception of the site, and led me to draw conclusions that simply weren't true, that kept me spiraling down. i have also been doing some serious thinking during the week, and putting your comments together with my ruminations, things fell into place a bit more, and i believe that i am in the right place, and that 'amanda' is the right character for me, the typist. i believe, now, that 'amanda' can return to the kajira that had such good potential at the beginning, and that she will be given a chance to do so. it may take time, but that is OK. i will keep studying the Tuchuk pages, reading the Gorean novels, and doing chores and making each serve the best that i can.
and, of course, i will not be reluctant to ask for help from you, and others.
take care, sister. hugs. and i will be here for you, too.
amanda
