Razz/noir/Sarant
But know that you no longer exist to me.
I knew it was too good to actually be true.
Every time I express my opinion, you do not have to post how much you disagree with it. Circe is my roleplay character on another site, after I shelved Kimba and was off-Gor for 2 years. It has nothing to do with this OOC discussion, but is further proof of your undying, unrelenting, unreasonable antipathy towards me.
I love Ragnar too. No matter how much you don't want me to be part of this family, you know damn well that I am, by Ragnar's choice. Do not force me to post the messages I sent you, to show how hard and how sincerely I have tried to bury the hatchet with you - and the messages that you sent back, to show how thoroughly and nastily you rejected every overture.
Just pull up your big-girl pants and stop creating hostility that doesn't need to be there. Crises are when people are supposed to put their past differences behind, for the good of everybody.
Ragnar is your Ubar. He is my friend, for more than thirteen years now. You and I, we saw entirely different sides of him. I'm the one he trusted to get him out of Amy's Lair when he was in the worst trouble he was ever in, after he tried to rescue some idiot friend of his. There was nobody in MTC who could fight well enough to do anything but get killed trying to save him, and no one who could Lead well enough to use your numbers to rescue him. I'm the one who made the plan that got him out of there. I'm the one who rounded up the people to actually get it done. I'm the one that helped him get his shit together for a month in my Lair afterwards, after Amy almost broke him.
Ragnar doesn't owe me anything, because he had saved my bacon before that, and since then. But Sarant, you do owe me. Because, if it weren't for me saving him, you'd have never known him.
I know what I know, and what I posted in my other post is true. It hurts your feelings that I dare suggest that you personally, and you collectively, let him down. So fine. I don't need to beat around the bush and hint at it now.
I'll tell you exactly what I told Calista. One thing that pains me greatly, is that one of Ragnar's few failures, that I would like to see amended while he's still breathing air - He wanted VERY much for us to be friends. That's right, me and you. He told me about you before I met you in roleplay. He said you reminded him of what I was like before I got my shit together and learned to control my temper. Even when me and you got off on the wrong foot in the Forest Game, and again when it happened as soon as Kimba and Sarant met in roleplay - he was still in my ICQ twisting my arm to try to reach you.
I know he is disappointed that there is not more roleplay in MTC. There is simply no arguing that. I know that he would be disappointed if he knew how much you hate me, because it really is a one-sided hatred.
I can't fix either of those things. But you can. Or not.
Of course it matters that Ragnar knows how much he is loved. Of course RT comes first. It's not an either/or situation. Those things can be true, without making what I said false. Those things matter. And the roleplay, or lack thereof, ALSO matters.