Today...
Kill them all, let God sort it out.
The nurses called me today around noon. They said that they had made the decision to dialysis cath him so they can do kidney dialysis. Okay. Good plan.
they said they have to intubate him for breathing and sedate him so the cath can be put in safely and properly. I said okay, did you tell his mother? they said she was there and had signed the paper giving permission. I said okay. They said the cath dr. would be around 6 pm and that they would have to have him tubed and sedated before then. I said, OKay, BUT I work until 4 pm. I work at the PD. it is less than 3 minutes from the hospital.
please, please please, will you wait until I can get there first and tell him that I love him and that I love him.. and hey, that I love him...
they said YES,, yes, they would wait because he will be sedated till his kidneys are cooperating and his overall condition improves to the point he wouldn't need a breathing tube and that could be days, or weeks. . I said, then please just let me be there to tell him that I love him and I will see him after is nap.
They said okay.
They are c**ksucking mutherf**ing lying two-faced conniving bastards and can all go to hell.
I got there at 4:07. The curtain was drawn to his room. I asked why. The desk nurse said that the anesthesiologist decided he had a break in his schedule and decided to do the intubating and sedation earlier so he could have a dinner break. Fuck him and his dinner break!! this is my life, my world, my love, my 14 1/2 years of everything... I don't know when they will wake him up, or if he will ever wake up and that fucktard couldn't wait? I am crushed, shattered... broken.. I can't stop crying ...
They let me in his room at 4:45.. he is resting sedated. I asked when the cath dr. would be in and when they would do the first dialysis. They said around 6 probably.
I sat there, telling him I loved him. I sang him the lightning bug song. I told him about my day. I always tell him the stupidest call I get in the day. Today was excessive dog poop in the public park.
6 pm came. I asked how long before the dr. because I wanted to ask about the procedure...Guess what?? they don't know, because now he can't decide whether to wait till the INR is lower.. (it is WELL within normal range at 2.08) or if the dialysis is more important. I politely suggested to them that he better consider the dialysis as more important and get his happy ass up there to ICU and get his cath install done. The dialysis team would be in after that. IF it wasn't too late for them to be in the hospital
And yet, they couldn't wait for me?
I called his Dr. babe. She doesn't practice at the hospital where he is..the ambulance team refused to take him anywhere else because it was closest to our house..given his non-responsive state when I had called them. All these fucktards had told her was~~
he had fallen out of bed. They had done some radiology scans on him and some other tests. ..
I filled her nurse in.. the Dr. babe was out on an emergency.
Then they sprung it on me that Social Services wanted to move him to a nursing home long term care place 30 miles away. FUCK THAT RODEO!
Who asked SS anyway? Who said I have neglected him? Who says I haven't cared for him? If he needs rehab after all this, what is wrong with the place down the street? If he needs round the clock care for a while, what is wrong with the place down the street? well...We prefer this other facility they are our affiliates...
better get affiliated with the place down the street m--f--ers!! Who even told them to notify Social services anyway? They tried to tell me that I okayed it. wrong lie m--f--ers... would they tell me the truth?? nope, that is confidential info.
I hate them all.. They need to be slain. Now we are all reminded why woobie will drive him to the hospital 20 miles away where his Dr. babe is fellowed.
The cath dr decided that tonight "sometime" would be good.
My heart is brokened.. I tell you.. brokened.. I made it through my whole day at work without breaking down and the bastards flat ass lied to me.
When I wake up around 3 am because the bed is empty and call to check on him, he better have a dialysis catheter and his first treatment done or scheduled bright and early AM.
I am homicidal and I have weapons.
thank you for letting me vent.. please keep praying.. we can plot their demises in due time.
