...I am not trying very hard to get into the r/p right now. 
I am going through 'issues'...and don't want to make my life more complex...and sad. I had loved the r/p, and spent hours every day, getting Scagnar to become a very active and fun place. It really came 'alive', and I visited MTC and did my best to make it interesting. I planned festivals, and pm'd with typists to make them have fun. The room would fill...and I would sit back and watch. 
But, that meant NOTHING to Jonas.
...he stripped me of a High Honor for no reason.
...I was hurt...r/t...it affected my r/t life.
…I just don't want to get back into the Gorean r/p...and get hurt again.
…I will probably go into the Forests, and 'Panther' alone
If you are still stuck on Scagnar, indeed you DO have some issues. It has been what... 2 - 3 years now at least? A long time at any rate. What you do in another home prior to coming is is usually not my concern. This, however is, as I have very close ties with Scagnar and those in it. I kept waiting to see the effort in Tuchuk you claim to have put into Scagnar.
He stripped you of nothing. You offered the Honor to him and he accepted. That was on you. I have seen the posts.
RP affects all of us to some degree, or you are not doing anything but putting in time. Be it sadness, hurt, excitement, joy, you feel something or you would not do it.
None have hurt you in MTC, and none hurt you when we visited the Isle together for the Althing. You tend to see what you wish to see sis... not what is actually there.
If you seek to go Panthering, then I will not stop you. But know before you actually do something you may come to regret later down the road, being a Oath Breaker once is tough to overcome. Doing so twice... that is a whole new level of foolishness. That does not speak well of Gorean Honor.
Naturally if you go I wish you well, but do so fully understanding that should you decide to ever return, Tuchuk has an even longer memory than The Isle of Scagnar, especially after speaking on your behalf to make sure you would even be welcomed there for events.
You know how to reach me if you wish to talk. If you do not wish to talk, then at least think long and hard of what you are about to throw away. A home that has taken you in, stood up for you returning with us to a home you had already broken your oath to, Marcus of Scagnar standing up for you before Law Rock seeking to allow you to come and go with us, and now your breaking your oath to Tuchuk. Is this how you wish to be seen on Gor? An Oath Breaker? One not to be trusted? One whose word means nothing? Not exactly a stellar recommendation to any home you may wish to become part of down the road.
So please think what you are about to do and the ramifications down the road.
Ever stop to think that maybe Gor is not the place for you? Shelve if you must and go earlier in the evenings to visit Castle Mac upstairs. Nate is a good guy. Hartlyn is easy to get to know. Try applying yourself to their Medieval home. You may just find your niche.
But bluntly put, do not make a Gorean ass of yourself and throw away any faith or trust you have managed to rebuild.
Rags
