Dad has been going downhill. On June 23 the river flooded here, and he had to be evacuated back to the hospital. He was there for 1 week before the hospice could be re-opened. In that 1 week, Dad went downhill so fast that I'm sure it made my head spin. A few days ago, he said to Mom, why can't I just go to sleep and not wake up anymore? It is so painful to hear that. Yesterday, when Mom and I were there, all he did was cry. I have been tryig to be strong for Mom, but there are days that I have crumbled, and days like today, when I have a day off, I had to tell Mom, I can't come to you because I need to be at home for once and get my own work done. That makes me feel like a heel, because I know she needs me, but so does my family and my house. My brother is pretty much useless, never there to help....and now, he is contending with flood damages and working out of town. So, I take some me time, I do my best.
On an up note, I do have some things to celebrate. I have been two months at a new job, that so far, I absolutely enjoy......tomorrow my husband and I will have been married 20 years....and next week, we become mortgage free!
