i'm going to be a grandmother but please dont congratulate me yet. while nineteen my daughter is not fit to be a parent nor her boyfriend. she in college and him not graduated highschool til this coming december, neither working, him on medication for behavioral issues, her refusing to take for bipolar diagnosis, she's already had a restraining order against him and she's assaulted me in the past. i believe all babies are gifts from God but why he chose her and not others whom pray for years and go without leaves me greatly confused. yet none of that really matters because there's going to be a baby either way. dont get me wrong, i am glad she is carrying it to term, it is my grandchild, dayammit, but they have no life skills and a parenting class and anger management class they want to take aren't going to work miracles. i just cant see them raising this baby. they just dont get that even the 'easiest' baby is just so hard sometimes. i hate that i have no say in this, that if i say too much she stops talking to me for days, if i say too little i feel that i'm going to go crazy. she uses me as an excuse in not wanting to put it up for adoption, because i spent years looking for my birth parents. neither her stepmom or i are willing to raise the baby ourselves, we've always told her that. i please ask for strength for me to keep advising her to love her child enough to give it up for adoption or to sometime accept a decision that she is going to raise this child because its her (and his) choice to make and for my first grandchild, who is going to have to be strong from the beginning,
my thanks for listening,
laura/typist behind kiah{MTC}
